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Got Change?

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What did you first see in the above image? Do you see two old people, a man and a woman? Or did you see a young man and a woman on the streets of Mexico? Did you look at the picture again? Did you see it change right before your eyes? Funny how things change like that, or how different people see things differently.

Have you ever watched your life, your personality, change? That’s been happening to me this year. All of the sudden I am watching myself change, without much effort, it’s just happening. It’s almost like watching from outside of me.

I have never liked change. I am black and white. I like stability and to know when things are happening and don’t you dare change them on me. I dislike chaos. Now, I am not so bad that I have to stick to a schedule or anything, though I do like checklists and other lists. I just like order in my life. I have never wanted change, or changed what I wanted. When times of life come where the only consistency is change, well, I just feel lost. And usually stressed.

So, with so much change going on this year, it’s crazy that I have been able to accept it as well as I have. That doesn’t mean I don’t have my times, but I’m doing pretty good.

I have moved 5 times that I can remember, one was a state move. I don’t like moving. But, what are we getting ready to do again? Move. Even though we had hoped our most recent move would be our last, I am somehow okay with moving again. Now, the packing… that I am not sure I can speak so kindly of…

As of the last month, I am finally learning to drive. I put it off for 3 whole years, because I just knew I wasn’t ready, much unlike my 16 year old brother who got is permit one month into being 15 (I actually got my permit the same day) or my 13 year old sister who would get her permit now, if she could. Funny thing is, the first time I drove after admitting to being ready to learn, I actually felt very comfortable driving. (Parents, if you have a strange child who does not want to drive right away, IT’S OKAY. It’s probably for the best, and may give less chance for an accident.)

I have always been scared to get a real job. I stink at math, what if I am not smart enough to give change? I am an introvert, what if I don’t have good enough people skills? I hurt my back, so I can’t lift heavy items. What if I am just not good enough? That has been my fear for a long time. But, guess what? Suddenly I am ready to get a job. (I still am worried about my poor math skills. Lol.) I am just trusting that they will train me well and that God will have me in just the right place, in just the right time.

My personality has also changed. I feel happier. I have always been a pessimist (still am, gotta work on that), therefore resembling Eeyore a lot of the time. But, I feel happier than I have in a long time. I feel more confident in talking to people. Yes, I am a quiet person. I don’t think I can change that. To get me to talk, you have to talk to me first most of the time. I just think ALL the time. Constantly thinking. But, I feel more confident. I am not afraid to stand up for the things I believe in. I am passionate. When I am passionate about something, I am full force.

Something pretty crazy I wasn’t ever sure would change is my relationship with my middle sister. We did not start off well. I don’t know if I was jealous, or what. (It’s me, then my brother, then her and two other sisters under her.) There is a 5 year age difference between her and I. We NEVER got along. I cannot remember one time we ever were friends. Since we let it continue for so long, I did not want to work at it to change it. We can both be very stubborn. I just did not want to have anything to do with fixing it. It felt pointless to me. Well, again, all of the sudden, this year, it kinda just changed without either of us trying. (I am kinda glad that’s the way it happened.) I think the change started coming because we both have been maturing. Me, slowly becoming an adult, and her (still hard for me to admit) becoming a young woman. I’m not saying that we’re done, we’re not best friends, and still have a lot to work at, but things are definitely very different.

Are you willing to accept the changes He has for you? They may not be as big and obvious as mine have been, but they’ll still be changes. Not very many humans like change. What changes have you already been through this year?

Just like that picture above, there is a bigger picture that will be coming in sight as we grow older. Are you ready?

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Posted by on July 22, 2013 in Random Thoughts

 

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My Brother’s Excellent Post on Change

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You can see my brother’s blog Picture It here.

If there was only one word that could describe this day, week, month or even year it would have to be Change. This may seem a little vague but let me explain. There have been things that change on a everyday basis and others that should not change just happen to change when you least expect it. Stuff like moving twice in one year can be stressful but you find out what friends can do for you. Or something as small as little baby bunnies running around can show you it is okay to slow down and enjoy the change.

Some change may be scary at first like your first job or you realizing that your sister turned 18 but this change may help you later on in life. The first job today may turn out to change you into who you are supposed to be. Your sister may be a shock to wake you up and get your butt in gear for adulthood.

Then there is the change that can excite you like being able to drive for the first time or being in a leadership position for the first time. Having the freedom to go places by yourself to get away or to go do stuff with your friends can be different a different change but still rewarding. Being a leader can be a scary change if you think about it, being in charge for the first time can be nerve-racking but at the same is rewarding.

Change may be unwelcome or even unwanted but it will happen at one point or another. It is how you deal with that change that may make a difference.

Do you try to smile and go on ignoring the change or do you turn to it and embrace it knowing it could change your life?

 
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Posted by on July 19, 2013 in Just For Fun

 

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Who’s Money is it Anyway?

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Recently, God has been testing my trust in Him with my finances. At 18 years old, and still living at home there hasn’t been much I have had to worry about when it comes to money. I pay for anything extra I want and my horses, but I get off pretty easily because my parents still pay for a lot.

Lately I have decided to start driving (yes, I waited a lot longer than the average teenager, but with good reason.) so that I can get a job when we move in a month or two. Well, I also decided it would be best for me to buy a car of my own as well. So I started saving. Then little Miss Rivver came along and ate all of my savings. Silly horse!

So… I started over. And… My account got overdrawn. First time that had ever happened to me. It was a nice, big mess. I was stressed and confused. The birthday money Mom and Dad had given me ended up going towards bank fees and such. All that and a way overdue pay check has really pushed my limits. I have cried a lot over the past couple days.

I knew that in becoming an adult that there would be adult stuff to handle, but I wasn’t quite prepared for it to happen. I have been trying to figure out how I am going to handle paying for the horses’ food and buying a car so that I can get a job with not as much money as I had planned on having. It seems like every time I turn around something else comes up. I refuse to be in debt, I am trying to start out well and pay cash for everything. I am just trying to figure out how to handle my money the best.

Have you noticed anything wrong with that last paragraph? How many times did I say MY money? That I was trying to handle it? What’s wrong with what I said? WE worked hard for OUR money, right?

The problem is that it isn’t OUR/MY money. So, who’s is it? God’s. It’s God’s money, not ours. He has so graciously given it to us to BORROW. He trusts us with His money. Do you remember hearing the story in Sunday School? The one about the man who gave his servants the different amounts of talents? A talent was a Greek coin that was worth 6000 drachmas. A drachma was a days wage. In todays money it would be about $360,000 U.S. dollars. So, this man trusted these servants with quite a bit of money. Two of the servants were wise with the man’s money. They knew it was his and used it in a way that would benefit the owner. The other man, hid the money, thinking the man would be proud, but he wasn’t. He gave the foolish man’s money to the wiser man with more talents. (Matthew 25:14-30)

We are to use God’s money wisely. God also calls us to give 10% back to him. It’s a very hard thing to tithe when you have no extra money. But we need to trust that He does everything for the glory and advancement of His Kingdom and be obedient in the things He calls us to do.

 
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Posted by on July 18, 2013 in Worldview

 

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Getting to Know… Me!

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1. What is your favorite time to wake up in the morning?

Well, I usually fall asleep between 10 and 12. I don’t like to be still awake after 12 because then I start counting how many hours until I have to get up and psych myself out. But, that wasn’t even the question. I prefer to sleep until 10-10:30. I try to be up before 11. It’s funny, when I was little I was a very early riser and we had friends that were late risers. I thought it was ridiculous that they were talking about waking up at lunch time! Well… Now I get it! 😉

2. Why do you have long hair?

Haha! I have absolutely no idea. I just have always liked it long. My Mom calls it my Samson hair. Currently it’s growing out from the shortest cut I have had in a really long time. I cut 8 inches off so the perm I got would hold better. Whenever I even gave thought to cutting it I decided not to, because when you have short hair you can’t braid it or throw it in a pony when you go outside.

3. What is my favorite coffee?

Oh. Man. Like, what kind? If I am drinking it at home with just half and half I like something like Cain’s. If I go to a coffee shop I like to go to Mudhouse. Drink-wise, I don’t like black. It’s not the taste really, I just prefer a more creamy texture. At the least I will add milk or half and half. I really prefer iced or blended coffee over hot.

4. What breeds are your horses?

Umm. Currently they are all just mutt horses! Haha! Lady (30, mare) appears to be at least part Arabian. I would guess she also has paint and/or Appaloosa blood. But I really don’t know. Jazzy (15, mare) is obviously a mini or a pony of some sort. She rides the height line of a big mini and a small pony. She also has Appaloosa-like markings, so may have some of that too. Rivver (1 month, filly) again, no idea. She is Jazzy’s foal, so whatever Jazzy is and we don’t know who her sire is. So, yup. Just smorgasbord horses. 🙂

5. If you could only listen to one song for the whole year, what would it be?

Hmm… I really don’t know. I like too many songs to pick a favorite and I don’t like any enough to listen to for a whole year. I would probably pick the National Anthem.

6. When did you learn to do laundry? Who is in charge of it at your house?

Laundry. Possibly my favorite household chore (if I had to choose. 😉 ) I don’t really remember learning to do laundry. I remember my grandma on my Mom’s side teaching me to fold socks, then Mom asking who taught me because I did them differently than she did. I also remember being too short to reach the powder detergent at a condo and it falling and getting in my eyes. It hurt so bad! I still can’t figure out an old washer… As for who is in charge of it… Well, we kind of all do our own. I like doing mine, but never have enough for a full load, so I started doing Mom’s for her. I only fold mine though. So, don’t get any ideas. 😉

7. What is something you hate?

This is a dangerous question for me. I have always been more of a pessimist and easily annoyed. And the word hate has lost it’s true meaning. So, maybe I should see it like it should be seen and find something I truly hate. I hate it when people use foul, dirty language. The weird thing is, it doesn’t bother me in the same way in movies. It is just annoying then, but in real life I really hate it.

8. What is something you love?

Another strong word which has lost it’s power… I mean, how people say “I love you.” with the passion it is supposed to hold? If we’re talking about the squishy, worldly definition of love then I LOVE my hair being played with.

9. When are you going to write a book?

This actually made me laugh out loud. It pleased me to no end to know someone likes my writing enough to ask me to write a book! The answer is, I have no idea. I have written one. Not published because I started it when I was 11, and looking at it now, if I took out the things I don’t like I would be left with the first chapter… I find that I do better with small, short writings rather than trying to make something long enough to be a book. If I were to write one, what would you want me to write about?

10. What do you think of reality TV?

I have to be honest, right? Well, I actually really enjoy watching TV. And to be honest, I kinda like reality TV too. Now, I don’t think it should be called reality, because most of it is scripted, but it is entertaining! 😉 I don’t think it’s always a good idea to watch it though. I think we can get a false view of the world if we aren’t careful. And seriously, shows like Here Comes Honey Boo Boo? Really?

11. Do you to prefer to have one room or to share? What were the pros and cons? How did it effect your relationship with that sibling?

I shared a room pretty much my whole life. Only within the last year did I get to have my own. I have share a room with all 4 siblings at one point or another. I really prefer to have my own room. The pros to sharing: If you aren’t me, you’ll probably get some quality chat time. 🙂 I guess you get used to random noises too. 😉 The cons (probably slightly selfish): It’s very hard if you are a Clean sharing with a Messy. Younger siblings tend to get into your stuff and wake up earlier. I guess it depends a lot on personality types. As for relationships. I honestly don’t think the room sharing was the cause of any problems we’ve had. There were lots of problems during, but none that lasted.

12. Do you listen to secular music like Oldies?

No. I really don’t care much for anything older than 2000. I really dislike the ’80’s (sorry, Mom). As for other secular music. I don’t much. Much more now than I used to. My siblings listen to a lot of Pop. It has grown on me, but it’s not my type of music. And there’s really only one theme… Not one I prefer to fill my head with. The only secular music I listen to quite a bit of, by choice, is Country.

13. What is your criteria for the music you do listen to?

Umm. Well, my radio is on Christian Contemporary 24/7, so I don’t give a lot of thought to it. But, like for Country, I don’t listen to songs that have cuss words in them. Drinking I have a little bit more tolerance with because I can kind of ignore it. Any music that talks about sex is out of question.

14. What is your favorite food?

I am really picky. I don’t like tomato sauce, Mexican food, or a lot of veggies. My favorite foods are country fried steak, biscuits and gravy, eggs Benedict, nearly anything with GARLIC. I am a meat and potatoes girl. No soup or salad for me!

15. Do you blog because your Mom makes you or because you want to?

Cuz I wanna! I have loved writing my whole life. I have kept a daily journal since I was 11. I rarely complained about writing a report. I am the only one out of my siblings who doesn’t groan when told to write something. (That’s math for me…) I had a blog a while back, http://www.horseandbuggyals.blogspot.com, but kind of lost interest. This year Mom decide to have the kids each have a blog as their language arts. I wasn’t required to, since I graduated, but I thought I’d go at it again. Writing is one of the few things I actually feel good at. To see the numbers of people reading my blog, and people who appreciate my writing, it gives me the sense that I can do something well. So, long answer short, yes, I write because I love to.

16. What Bible version do you use?

The Bible I own is a NASB study bible. I actually really like it. When I was little I used NIV, but now there are some theological issues with the newer versions. I don’t mind ESV, that’s what my home church uses, but I prefer the wording of the NASB. Both are translated from the original scripts. I don’t care for KJV or NKJV. First, King James made HIS version with wrong intentions. Second, I don’t feel like I get anything out of it because I am too busy translating the old English. One version I REFUSE to use is The Message. I believe that it is wrong. It’s a wonderful example of eisegesis. And it is an illegitimate translation.

17. How do you deal with a crush on a guy?

Well, I won’t deny the fact that I currently have a crush on someone. I also will admit I have had two others. But, how do I deal with them? Each time it has been very different. The first time I was probably 9. I had a crush on the neighbor boy. It was mutual. We hid it the best we could, but somehow my parents found out. I got in big trouble. 😉 I was little then and really understood nothing at all. We had held hands and even talked about kissing. We were so 9. The second one was about 3 years ago. That crush came with ALL the emotions. I was confused because I had never felt like that about someone. I hid it for a little while, but ended up asking my dad what he thought of him. Not what I was hoping for. It took me a long time to move my heart along, but I quickly learned he was right and that I needed to trust him. This next one came at a time I wasn’t looking for a crush. Long story to how it came about. This whole time I have kept my parents informed, keeping no secrets. I am seeking their advice and opinions. I know I will appreciate it with whatever comes of it. My advice? Keep your parents involved. They’ve been through this before and can see things you can’t when your head is clouded with emotions. Trust that they have your best interest in mind.

18. What was the biggest moment of your 18 years?

Oh man. How am I supposed to answer this? Well, without Him I am nothing. So, I suppose the absolutely most important part of my life thus far was when I decided I wasn’t good enough for Him. It’s hard growing up in a Christian home, in a way, because in some cases, you grow up thinking you already are saved. Kind of the mentality of, “I was born into this religion and I don’t sin as bad as other people do, so that must mean I am a Christian.” That’s where I was. I “prayed the prayer when I was 5, and claimed I was a Christian. I understood salvation and everything else, but it wasn’t really talked about in our church. We moved when I was 8 and the church we moved into was much better. I still thought I was a Christian. When I was 11 I went on a missions trip to Oklahoma City with my choir. It was during a worship song I had never heard before at a church we visited that God spoke to me in a way that had never happened before. I was torn between wanting to fall flat on my face or jump up and down ecstatically. I had suddenly come to realize how good I wasn’t. But that He still loved me, and not only that but He GAVE HIS LIFE FOR ME. From then on it has been a long journey, with lots of tests and teaching points, but it’s gonna be worth it!

 
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Posted by on July 11, 2013 in Just For Fun

 

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Chipotle Breakfast Burritos

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This is just something I invented based off of Sonic’s Ultimate Meat and Breakfast Burrito, so, hang with me. 😉

•1 lb of regular flavor sausage
•Bacon, or bacon bits (which is what I used)
•Eggs
•Milk
•A few tater tots
•A packet of the cheese sauce you put in Kraft Shells and Cheese
•Chipotle powder
•Garlic powder
•Onion powder
•Sour cream
•Worcester sauce
•Tortillas

The tater tots take the longest to make, so put them in the oven and cook them according to the directions on the package.

Cook the sausage in a skillet, making sure it is crumbled well. When the sausage is cooked, cook and crumble the bacon, unless you have bacon bits. Add the bacon to the sausage and mix it together. Put meat in a separate bowl (unless you have two skillets, unlike me.)

Make scrambled eggs in the skillet next. I just used 8 eggs for 6 people, a splash of milk and salt and pepper to taste.

Now for the cheese sauce. 😉 It really isn a recipe, just whatever we had and I made it taste good. 😉 I put the cheese sauce in a bowl with some milk, enough to make it thinner and whisked it together. I added two spoonfuls of sour cream as well. The seasonings are to taste. I used two splashes of Worcester sauce, about a half teaspoon of onion powder, a teaspoon of garlic powder and probably 2-3 Tablespoons of chipotle powder. It didn’t taste really great by itself, but was great on the burrito.

You should now have all of your components available to build your burrito! Enjoy!

 
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Posted by on July 8, 2013 in Country Kitchen, Recipes

 

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Getting To Know…?

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I would like to do a 20 questions type post. So, here’s the dealio. Anyone may send in a comment with up to 5 questions to ask me. I will wait until July 11 (my birthday) to write the post. You may ask whatever you want, BUT if I deem your question inappropriate or would reveal too much information about me, I.E. Where I live, what my full name is, etc. your question will not be posted and answered. Good questions would be favorites, I.E. What my favorite drink is, my favorite color, etc. Depending on how many questions come through I may break it off, not answer all of them, so please keep it to a 5 question maximum. 🙂 Have fun!

 
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Posted by on July 3, 2013 in Just For Fun

 

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You Pick Winner: Barefoot and Dirty Days

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S.E. Bailey from What Say You suggested I write about how barefoot and dirty days of growing up in the country makes for a grounded soul.

The idea of this topic just made me smile. I have to be honest though, I haven’t gone barefoot a lot throughout my life and I have only lived in the country for a year.

I have always loved playing in the mud, provided I don’t get June beetles in my hair like that one time… 😉 I am kinda a sissy when it comes to bugs and snakes. But anyway, I loved to feel the squishy mud in between my little toes. I loved to create things with mud and let them harden. I even have some of them still!

I don’t ever remember being afraid of getting dirty. Now, that doesn’t mean I wasn’t at one time, as I, like almost every other little girl, did go through a short princess phase. I always dreamed of living in the country. I did not care for city life, living in a subdivision. For this very reason the song How Country Feels is one of my absolute favorite country songs. Randy Houser names off just about everything I dreamed to do, or have done.

One of the best times of my life was going horseback riding with my two very country friends. They did some country things that I had never gotten to do before. It was a lot of fun and made me feel at peace. There is something about spending time in the world as God first created it.

So, at this time in my life I don’t know that I could explain how the “barefoot and dirty days” growing up in the country make for a grounded soul. But I know it does. I guess there is something about owning a piece of land that makes you feel safe and secure.

What do you think about country living? Do you like to get dirty? Or are you a city slicker? 😉

 
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Posted by on July 1, 2013 in Just For Fun, On Our Little Farm

 

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